This is the story of the freedom and the sunshine that now permeates my very being I am the mother of a communicating actualized autistic boy child who has consumed my every thought for almost thirteen years. I diagnosed him myself silently. I have a degree in special education that equipped me with the familiarity to diagnose my son from birth although I did not ever actively work in the field. I recognized the symptoms and I knew immediately that I was in for the run for my son's and my life. I understood that the help out there in nineteen ninety four was very bleak. I did not want to discuss his condition with anyone because I did not want to hear their diagnosis nor prognosis. Things were being offered like early intervention which was and is most important. At the time there was not much promise and experience behind it. I could not tolerate the uncertain future, so I decided to free my son myself. I am now so thankful and grateful that I took this approach myself because I now know the cause of his condition for certain. I don't know the real prevention in most cases, but I do know why he could not speak and develop intellectually in a normal and regular manner. I observed him as if he were on a respirator for his life. He is a combination of my husband and myself and I could and did diagnose him properly & correctly. I am sure of this because my own brain has recording issues. A person not having this might find it impossible to discover this. I have not met anyone who has exactly described their brain as I describe mine. My son's brain earlier in life did not record in a lot of important areas. His brain stem however seemed to be functioning well. Please forgive me. I want to try to discuss a bit of science with you. Bear with me I'm trying to simplify this hard, heart felt subject. I lived and observed my son as my heart was screaming for understanding. The big! big question is why are there so many differences between autistic children. It appears that most all brains in human beings are basically structurally alike. When things appear differently, we compare it to what we call a normal functioning brain pattern. That is how we conclude that there is damage. My observation is that the brain of my child is made up of the basic DNA-pool of my husband and my family's DNA. Your child's brain is made up of the basic DNA of your two parents' families too. I'll say DNA has traits and talents that are particular and peculiar to those two families for the most part for analytical purposes. Yet, we say and see that the basic components of all brains are theoretically and basically the same. The basic structure via DNA makes up the explanation of why each autistic child performs at different levels at different times and demonstrates different abilities. Many parents proclaim their child does this and others proclaim their child does that. They proclaim that they are so different, yet they have so many similarities. This suggests to me, as a parent who has observed my child as if he was on a resipirator for life support, the damage is not done to the DNA structure that is germane for familiar traits. The damage is done to the part of the brain that is located in the cerebrum. The cerebrum performs these important services or functions: (1) the five senses, (2) thinking, (3) memory and (4) speech. The central area here to autism is memory. The memory has severe damage. All of the surrounding components cannot work because the memory is not recording anything of significance permanently. The memory is the component that has to be rehabilitated and brought up to a level that can record, so that the five senses can be normal. (1) The hearing can be so loud to the child's ears that it literally hurts from the noise. (2) The softest touch can startle the child because each time it is a new experience. This makes the child hate and reject touch. (3) Eating and the pleasure of food come from a sense of smell. The memory has t