Being a high school student in this generation is far from easy. Often I doubted myself and questioned whether I was "good" enough. This self-doubt was rooted through nasty comments and people planting seeds of doubt in your head.
Often, I felt as though my kindness and selflessness was taken for granted and I began to lose hope when I realised I would not get what I deserve, a consistent theme throughout high school.
I've always been a resilient person in the face of adversity, but even that wasn't enough. I felt as if I was taking one fall after another and began to lose hope that I'll be happy.
I used to do too much and care too much, even when it wasn't reciprocated. I began losing myself to become someone else, someone who looked like they were happy or did things because it'd make others happy. What sucks is that I began to place other's happiness ahead of mine and it wasn't until one of my friend gave me a wake up call to do better, to be better, and all this for myself.
I haven't grown to stop caring, I've grown to care with boundaries. I've grown to love myself and put myself first. I've grown to learn that it is expectations that hurt us and perhaps the only expectations we should hold, are from ourselves.
I tried to have my own "person'' for years. Some would leave the city, others would already have their own person, and it would always sting because I would begin questioning whether I wasn't good enough.
Part of growing up is realising that our self worth is not determined by others, but by ourselves. It took me so long to realise that I was dependent on how someone perceived me, that I forgot that I was living this life for myself and not for someone else.
There were many days where I felt like I had no one to share my problems with and I'd let everything chip a part of me every time something happened.
So go and live life for yourself, clap for yourself and be proud of every achievement and do it for yourself: )
