Love is an emotion and to find that one person who is compatible both emotionally and mentally your equal can be difficult amongst 6 billion people on this planet. To be a gay man means you are now looking at those 10% of men who are gay in your own spere of influence; your city or town, your country, or if you are a world traveler, then the world you visit.

Zachariah Hoffman (Zach to his friends) was a young Jewish lad, from a farming community in Ohio, fresh from the farm owned by his parents, and wanting to search the world for his own place; his own reason for being. His family were true followers of their religion, but Zach had always felt he needed more to convince him that religion was to be a part of his life. It wasn't that he didn't believe, it was that he had questions, and nobody could answer them to his satisfaction. Zach was now in his last year at college and still had no idea what he would do with the rest of his life. The family had finally moved to Chicago after the farm owned by his family was taken by the bank for failed mortgage payments. They now lived in the cheaper end of South Chicago.

Zach played many sports, from Football to hockey, track and field, basketball, but never excelled in any; maybe he would be a follower rather than a player in his future. His parents had always encouraged him to play sports, his father being a big fan of football and the NFL, following the Cleveland Browns; Zach could take them or leave them. Zach had watched the LGBTI Pride games whenever he could whilst his father was working or away and his mother was busy volunteering at their local charity shop. He didn't know if he was gay or not, he had never encountered any other student at his college who was gay, or ever sort them out, but he felt different; was not attracted to the girls in his year group like most of the other boys in his stream. He found he got an erection when in the shower after sports and always put it down to the hot showers, as he saw many others having similar reactions, but he was starting to think otherwise now after reading articles, watching the Pride games, and looking at web pages online.

Being 17 years old, he had started to jack off secretly when he was around 15 years old and never needed any magazines or photos to be able to get an erection, but he found he was now searching the web for more and more sites with men; naked men, men with just their shirts off; black men, white men, but seldom Asian men. He found his sexual emotions were more reactive when he was looking at naked black men rather than naked white men; they excited him and sometimes he even found he was dribbling at the mouth. Was he really a gay man or was he just exploring sex and his own mind?

Once Zach realized he was different, he started to look at his fellow sportsmen in a different way; did they also have an erection when they showered, did they look around whilst in the shower and look at all the others? Did any of his fellow sportsmen look at his cock when they were at the trough in the toilets after a game? Zach found he was using his eyes more and more when in the changing rooms, whilst in the shower, when taking a leak in the toilets; he was staring at the other boys, at their cocks, at their ass; oh God, I am gay, I looked at Spicer's ass, and I liked it. Why did I look at his ass, why did I like it? I can't answer that question, not yet anyway, but I liked how it looked; firm, his legs muscled and strong and his cock just hung there with the water dripping off the end as the water ran over Spicer's body; yes, he was looking at me, oh god, I was getting an erection; Spicer was black, why did he excite me so much?

Zack and Josh Spicer finally got to gether and Zach found gay sex exciting and agreed to become Josh's boyfriend, but Josh had a fetish that would lead them both into trouble they didn't expect or want. It led them to prison and a life both would regret.