Fears, Frustrations, and Fuckups was written during my journey to clear past traumas.
During the writing process, many different fears, frustrations, and fuckups were both revealed and healed.
The more I wrote the more I remembered...
The more I remembered the more I felt...
The more I felt the more I realized that I was still stuck in past situations even though I was not in that situation currently...
I realized I was reacting to current situations the way I would have and should have reacted in my past...
I was seeing everything I went through and felt I resolved in front of me all over again, but these were different people, I was in a different place, and I thought I was handling situations differently...
The awakening occurred when I realized I was reacting to my present moments as if I was still engaging in past situations...
My mental and emotional were not in my present reality...
I was bringing past hurt, pain, drama, and trauma into my present and it made me feel as if I didn't belong all over again...
The fulfillment came when I decided to forgive myself for the wrongs I created and forgive those for the wrongs I accepted from them...
Through this process, I gained my integrity...
I began to be pure in my intentions...
I made choices to be better in all I did...
I changed my mind for the better... to be my best...
I began to innerstand how integrity truly works...
When we know our truth yet the people, places, and situations respond differently, it's a sign that we are not in alignment with our surroundings...
The moment we sway outside of our truth we are giving away pieces of ourselves that we may never get back from that person, place, or situation...
When we want a thing, a place, or a person and every step towards or with that person, place, or thing leaves us farther away than where we started, it should be a realization that we could be forcing something to be more than it was meant to be...
We may choose to suffer behind what may only have been a momentary lesson in that season of our lives...
Opening our eyes to this may be difficult because it requires the realization that we could be wrong...
We could be deciding against ourselves...
We could be choosing our fears, frustrations, and fuckups over our fulfillment, our purpose, and our happiness...
This book is a reminder that choice is our greatest gift, experience is our only truth, and knowledge is our overstanding of all that we are, have been, and will be...
Our wisdom is choosing to respond as the best version of ourselves in all we experience going forward...
