The highest peacetime rating was Sergeants Major Corp Staff. The highest combat rating was Sergeant First Class Infantry Platoon Sergeant. But it was not until I was in my 40s and retired that I would remember I was sexually abused as a kid. This would transpire as I was in rehab for substance abuse. This triggered many feelings, and as a result, I was not a good participant in group therapy. So I got voted off the premice. The other patients insisted I leave.So let's start with my wife thought I was crazy in each of my letters from Iraq. I had to process but needed to stay under the radar with my communications off the reservation. So shooting stars were mortars. Flowers were daisy-chained IEDs. Dogs barking were firefights. Video games were explosions. Church services were dead bodies. Mail call was stupid decisions made by others. It has been over a decade since our divorce. I would like to share. Have you ever just known a person? Someone for whatever reason rocks the boat but does it through the knowledge of rules regulations protocol and procedures and always ends up with a life jacket. Well, that is me. I am not saying that I am a menacing looking person like Jack Reacher. I am referring to the character in the books. I do not intimidate.No, I am more like Allan Hawco who plays the main character in The Republic of Doyle TV show. I am an average of 5 foot 10 inches tall. Around 165 pounds give or take depending on which season it is. However, I just seem to do what I do with confidence and no condensation. You want an example. Here it is. I never say no you cannot sir. I allow the resources to do this. So if confronted with not having enough resources. I just say simply. The resources you gave to Tom take them back and give to Brady. The man in charge says he cannot do that. I say yes you can. You can apply this to every resource every time. I will get more specific later. Without getting a magical signature.The most important thing I did was stand toe to toe and look at whomever I was interacting with. Eye to eye contact especially important. Yes, this is where you chime in and say you cannot on a phone or text, or email. I am with you. Let us not go down the rabbit hole.I always liked the inner dialogue of Magnum PI had on the TV show. It really kept me in check. It informed me if I had to whisper it. If I had to send a messenger. If I had to look left or right before doing it. Well, it probably should not be done. And if I saw this behavior I should probably investigate.You can learn a lot about people through the 80s movies of Conan. The power of steel was replaced with the power of winning hearts and minds. Think about how we are doing that these days. That example of a devoted follower being summoned off a cliff to his death. Well, that is not fictitious. That is a fact. No the extra in the movie did not die. But many did in historical times. Because the power of steel is not as powerful as the heart and mind.I always did an after-action review before ending the day. I seemed to remember so very well so many colorful times. Many interactions taught me numerous lessons in life. The stories you are about to read and either understand or not due to your own circumstances and experience are the Stories of Cutter Bildarth. The man the myth the legend. They are all a work of fiction. Because we know that these stories could not be true.Names have been changed to protect the wicked evildoers because Cutter would never allow someone to have power over him. But if it was not for conflict. Cutter would never have become such an inspirational character for so many to look up to.