★#1 NEW RELEASE IN SUBSTANCE ABUSE-AMAZON MAY 14, 2019!★

A compelling memoir documenting John's addictions, relationship's, the supernatural, spiritualism and the 12 steps. The story is filled with raw, jaw dropping accounts of real life events that are dreamlike, laugh out loud humorous, and life lessons that leave the reader feeling uplifted, lighter and exploding into a million pieces of joy! Through his personal experiences John shows how he ultimately reached that place of peace and understanding that the world can neither give nor take away. Rather than meditating in a cave for twenty years, John has taken life head on in outrageous and sometimes unbelievable experiences that led to his awakening.

The techniques outlined and practiced in this book will guide you to a life beyond your wildest dreams!

Learn to live in the now with total peace and joy!

Identify, delete and reprogram a new subconscious mind.

Unworthiness Programming and where it comes from:

-Born in "sin"-Society, parents, education.

- Negative self-talk-Self

- Dishonesty-Self-leads to guilt, shame, remorse.

- Not good enough-Parents, self.

-I don't deserve it-Parents, self.

-Debt (instant gratification)-Society, parents & self.

-Lack-Society, parents, education, self.

-What other people think of me-self-imposed narcissistic illusion.

-Selfishness-What I want. What I deserve. It belongs to me. I'm not treated right, etc. (Wanting to change others or things is selfish).

Solution:

-Change beliefs and keep an open mind. Beliefs are just thoughts that you think over and over again until you believe something. Everybody is right according to them! They have their own programming, conditioning, life events and experiences. (You have no idea what they've been through). Accept everybody and everything the way they are or it is.

-Be authentic.

-Stop talking or thinking negative thoughts! Write them down at night. Every time they come up change them with positive affirmations. I AM __________. (Abundant, worthy, etc.)

- Stop lying.

-Be grateful for what you have.

- Stop blaming others and accept responsibility for your actions. The devil didn't make you do it you did!

-Quit complaining.

-Act as if you already have it. Imagine it, experience the feeling of it. (joy)

-Spend time in silence. Meditate and pray for this Creator of Worlds, this Intelligence of the Universe to help you.

-Let go of past traumas/resentments. As I let go of _______, I am let go from _______.

-Write down and repeat all through the day I AM statements, especially at night before sleep.

The reader will be shocked, crying and then laughing uncontrollably over his strange and wonderful life full of hardship, supernatural experiences and spiritual epiphanies. The story moves along at a good pace, and just when the reader thinks that he/she knows what is going to happen next, something out of the blue occurs. Lots of suspense and surprise and wonder. John tells the story in the present tense. That gives it a sense of immediacy. The humorous touches throughout are great! They balance out the sad stories in a yin-yang kind of way. John's voice in the prose is clear and persuasive. The reader can hear him saying these words sitting as if right next to them. Too many writers try to generate an "authorial" voice and end up sounding contrived. This book, on the other hand, clearly comes from the heart. It peels back layers of mystery yet never goes so far afield that the reader cannot follow. It is a journey the reade