About the Book
I thank you, Lord, Lord of heaven and earth, that from the addition of the world you predetermined you to come from non-being into being. I thank you and worship you, the Most Holy Tsar, that before my birth, you, the one immortal, the one omnipotent, the only good and humane, descended from the height of your holy One, incarnated and born of the Holy Virgin, to recreate me, revive me, me free from ancestral sin and prepare me to rise to heaven. Then, when I was born and grew a little, You renewed me with rebirth in Holy Baptism, clothed me with the clothes of the grace of the Holy Spirit, gave me a bright Guardian Angel, and while I came to a perfect age, You kept me unharmed from all evil and from all the nets of the devil . But as You rightly decreed, that we, the rational, should not be saved by any coercion or violence, but by arbitrary choice and decision, he also left me to show the honor of autocracy in me, so that through the fulfillment of Your commandments I would show my spontaneous love for You. I, a negligent and ungrateful one, thought that the dignity of autocracy is a permission the same as an unreasonable animal from a bond is allowed; why, as soon as he felt permission, he so withdrew from the dominion of Thy authority and plunged himself into the ditch of many evils. For all that, however, that you were in that deepest ditch in insensibility and suffered great injuries, You did not turn away from me and did not leave me to wallow in this filthiness forever, but, by the grace of Your mercy, you took me out of there and honored me even more, with mysterious by Your destinies delivering me from kings and rulers who wanted to convert me to the service of worldly and worldly benefits, not letting me get carried away by the gifts of gold and silver, although I was loving, and disposing me to despise, like the abomination, glory and honor of real life that they gave me, instead of acquiring Your holiness. But I, having attributed all Your good deeds to me for nothing (I confess to Thee, Lord of heaven and earth), I plunged myself again, poor, into the ditch and the impurity of bad thoughts and deeds - and when I fell again this time, then fell into the power of mental robbers, from whose hands not only I could not free myself, but if the whole world gathered, then he could not free me. But You, a gracious and philanthropic Vladyka, did not tolerate me to remain in this pit in a miserable state, to be poorly dragged and ridiculed by these enemies, not to recall my thinnesses, He did not turn away from my indecent disposition and did not allow me to be tormented for a long time by those murderers; and although I, being held captive by them, was glad that I was insensible, but You, Vladyka, could no longer watch them make me ugly spectacles and, to my shame, dragged me here and there, - but I took pity above me and showed his mercy to me, not an Angel, and not a man, having sent to me, a reproached and sinful one, but Himself, moved by the womb of His goodness, bowed to that deepest moat and extended Thy pure hand to me, which, being immersed in the depth of that mud, I have not seen Thee, for how could I open my eyes and see, having been sunk into that nasty in and absorbed by it? So you took me by the hair of my head, that is, enlightened my thoughts, and, pulling with great effort, you extracted from there. I felt attracted and realized that I was going upstairs, but he did not know at all who I was attracted to, or who was holding me and lifting me up. After you removed me from that doom upstairs and, laying it on the ground, gave me to one slave and to your disciple all that was defiled, with both lips and ears and eyes covered with impurity. But I, despite the fact that I came to the earth, still did not see You, who You are; I knew only one thing, that You are a kind and loving man who has taken me from the deepest ditch of all impurities.